Break Away♥

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying.
Cause that's what I said I would do from the start.

Hey people. :D
My immunity's bein kind of weak lately,
so I sort of had a flu + cough + fever on tuesday,
and the fever went off within the night.
The flu was still there, I suppose, cause my voice was all off-sounding.
The cough comes on and off least expected.
So I stayed home to rest the next day, which was Wednesday.
I knew I needed lots of sleep so I tried to stay in bed and sleep and sleep and sleep..
Until I couldn't fall asleep no more.

Uhhhhh... I.. then cooked plain porridge for myself though I had no appetite..
And everything tastes bland due to my flu I guess..
I think I watched tv a little.
Or alot.
The tv was showing kiddy shows all the way till 3pm and I had nothing to do so -_-
Screw it.
It's the holidays already, so why kiddy shows?!
It's not like we teenagers wake up so late anyway. >_>
Bah, can't remember the rest.
My muscles were still aching rather terribly from Monday's dance so I walked round the house like a penguin.
For dinner, daddy drove us to the foodcourt at yewtee.
Like I said, no appetite, so I didn't buy anything.

My sisters got a small bowl and gave me some of their yong tau foo,
which I ate it and wasn't rather happy about it cause I couldn't taste much.
The next day, (thursday) I met Lewis in the morning.
I was really excited and couldn't wait,
but I felt kind of nervous as I approached the steps with Momo on my shoulder.
I walked slowly and hesitantly, and I saw him sitting there, looking at me, smiling.

Things ran rather smoothly, I'd say,
and in the end we went out with my sister for a movie.
We were late and missed the first 20-30mins or so :/
But the movie was still as nice as I've hoped for.
Oh btw, we watched Rapunzel, a tangled tale.
After that I sent Lewis to the mrt station and accompanied my sister for awhile.
Then she had to meet her boyfriend so I went home.

I was hungry so I called Becky.
AMAZINGLY, she was like, "oh, okay," When I asked her for dinner.
o_o
I mean like, usually she would all be like, "I can't, my parents don't allow,"
or something along those lines.
And then I'd get all sad and go, "oh okay.. Nevermind then, bye."
then I'd usually end up cooking something at home which I'd be too lazy to wash up after.
So.. It was really cold and wet..
I still felt rather cold under my jacket, as I walked home to get more money.
Then headed to the bus stop, it was still drizzling rather heavily and boy, it was cold.
I boarded the bus and froze. Like literally.
My legs were so cold but I couldn't warm them up cause I was hugging myself to keep my upper body warm.

So anyway.. Had pasta mania for dinner.
I chose cheesy crumble.. Becky chose Meatball spag.
Sigh. I should really stop consuming cream bases cause it fills you up really fast and..
You'd get sick of the food really fast too, so you'd be all like, "ugh.. I don't wanna eat no more.."
But it's delicious in the beginning.. Before your tastebuds get numb with the flavour.
<_<

After dinner walked around, and at the pasar malam,
we saw Haiy, Izzat and a few others.
(We were linking elbows actually)
I was like, "Izzat!" and stretched my hand out which he shook.
Then one of them was like, "Where your boyfriend?"
so I replied, "At home,"
lol. ._.
Then blah blah this, and blah blah that and we took 307 home. :)

Which leaves us to today..
Dance was rather intense today..
With both Mr Peter and Xu lao shi,
we suffered twice as worse for our warmups..
Cause we had to do BOTH of the teacher's warm ups.
Sigh @_@
Plus, my tummy didn't feel that good..
cause it was that time of the month..
Geez. And as usual, Yan Ping and I didn't get selected for the syf group.
Kind of dissapointed.
I feel like we have put in effort,
even until we have blue blacks on our knees and stuff and my ankle feels pain and stuff..
And although my nervousness was so pressurizing that it made me unable to balance properly..
This sucks.
Do we really suck that bad?

ANYWAY, I'd be staying over at Michelle's place next week.
Probably monday or something. :)
I can't decide whether I should stay for a night or two..
I'd be playing sims anyway. -w-
And we'd be window shopping for the first day..
I can't wait!

But it all means that I'd have to start doing at least some of my hw this weekend..
Cause I'm also going to Malaysia in December..

OH OH OH AND DID I MENTION..
The dance tee is finally "out"? :D
So happy.. (:
It looks awesome, though it didn't turn out as I had designed it to be..
The front words "DANCER" was supposed to be on the chest. (yes, chest.)
But it turned out to be somewhere on the lower half of my boobs.
-.-
Maybe if they were bigger it would've been perfect but oh well. >_>
The slogan is too low anyway. Not my fault.
And the dancers were supposed to be ALIGNED LEFT,
not in the friggin centre!!!! Dammit.. >_>

Yours truly;
Belle♥

Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise
I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes

Making every kind of silence, takes a lot to realize

It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie

And as long as I can feel you holding on

I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying

'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start

I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave

Was it something I said or just my personality?

Making every kind of silence, it takes a lot to realize

It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie

And as long as I can feel you holding on

I won't fall, even if you said I wrong

I know that I'm not perfect, but I keep trying

'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start

I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave

Was it something I said or just my personality?

When you're caught in a lie and you've got nothing to hide

When you've got nowhere to run and you've got nothing inside

It tears right through me, you thought that you knew me

You thought that you knew

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying

'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start

I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave

Was it something I said or just my personality?

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying

'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start

I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave

Was it something I said or just my, just myself

Just myself, myself, just myself

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying..

-Perfect by Hedley.

It's like I can relate to this song so well..


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↑ 26th November. @Friday, November 26, 201011/26/2010 07:08:00 PM I'm not perfect, but I keep trying. Cause that's what I said I would do from the start. Hey people. :D My immunity's bein kind of weak lately, so I sort of had a flu + cough + fever on tuesday, and the fever went off within the night. The flu was still there, I suppose, cause my voice was all off-sounding. The cough comes on and off least expected. So I stayed home to rest the next day, which was Wednesday. I knew I needed lots of sleep so I tried to stay in bed and sleep and sleep and sleep.. Until I couldn't fall asleep no more. Uhhhhh... I.. then cooked plain porridge for myself though I had no appetite.. And everything tastes bland due to my flu I guess.. I think I watched tv a little. Or alot. The tv was showing kiddy shows all the way till 3pm and I had nothing to do so -_- Screw it. It's the holidays already, so why kiddy shows?! It's not like we teenagers wake up so late anyway. >_> Bah, can't remember the rest. My muscles were still aching rather terribly from Monday's dance so I walked round the house like a penguin. For dinner, daddy drove us to the foodcourt at yewtee. Like I said, no appetite, so I didn't buy anything. My sisters got a small bowl and gave me some of their yong tau foo, which I ate it and wasn't rather happy about it cause I couldn't taste much. The next day, (thursday) I met Lewis in the morning. I was really excited and couldn't wait, but I felt kind of nervous as I approached the steps with Momo on my shoulder. I walked slowly and hesitantly, and I saw him sitting there, looking at me, smiling. Things ran rather smoothly, I'd say, and in the end we went out with my sister for a movie. We were late and missed the first 20-30mins or so :/ But the movie was still as nice as I've hoped for. Oh btw, we watched Rapunzel, a tangled tale. After that I sent Lewis to the mrt station and accompanied my sister for awhile. Then she had to meet her boyfriend so I went home. I was hungry so I called Becky. AMAZINGLY, she was like, "oh, okay," When I asked her for dinner. o_o I mean like, usually she would all be like, "I can't, my parents don't allow," or something along those lines. And then I'd get all sad and go, "oh okay.. Nevermind then, bye." then I'd usually end up cooking something at home which I'd be too lazy to wash up after. So.. It was really cold and wet.. I still felt rather cold under my jacket, as I walked home to get more money. Then headed to the bus stop, it was still drizzling rather heavily and boy, it was cold. I boarded the bus and froze. Like literally. My legs were so cold but I couldn't warm them up cause I was hugging myself to keep my upper body warm. So anyway.. Had pasta mania for dinner. I chose cheesy crumble.. Becky chose Meatball spag. Sigh. I should really stop consuming cream bases cause it fills you up really fast and.. You'd get sick of the food really fast too, so you'd be all like, "ugh.. I don't wanna eat no more.." But it's delicious in the beginning.. Before your tastebuds get numb with the flavour. <_< After dinner walked around, and at the pasar malam, we saw Haiy, Izzat and a few others. (We were linking elbows actually) I was like, "Izzat!" and stretched my hand out which he shook. Then one of them was like, "Where your boyfriend?" so I replied, "At home," lol. ._. Then blah blah this, and blah blah that and we took 307 home. :) Which leaves us to today.. Dance was rather intense today.. With both Mr Peter and Xu lao shi, we suffered twice as worse for our warmups.. Cause we had to do BOTH of the teacher's warm ups. Sigh @_@ Plus, my tummy didn't feel that good.. cause it was that time of the month.. Geez. And as usual, Yan Ping and I didn't get selected for the syf group. Kind of dissapointed. I feel like we have put in effort, even until we have blue blacks on our knees and stuff and my ankle feels pain and stuff.. And although my nervousness was so pressurizing that it made me unable to balance properly.. This sucks. Do we really suck that bad? ANYWAY, I'd be staying over at Michelle's place next week. Probably monday or something. :) I can't decide whether I should stay for a night or two.. I'd be playing sims anyway. -w- And we'd be window shopping for the first day.. I can't wait! But it all means that I'd have to start doing at least some of my hw this weekend.. Cause I'm also going to Malaysia in December.. OH OH OH AND DID I MENTION.. The dance tee is finally "out"? :D So happy.. (: It looks awesome, though it didn't turn out as I had designed it to be.. The front words "DANCER" was supposed to be on the chest. (yes, chest.) But it turned out to be somewhere on the lower half of my boobs. -.- Maybe if they were bigger it would've been perfect but oh well. >_> The slogan is too low anyway. Not my fault. And the dancers were supposed to be ALIGNED LEFT, not in the friggin centre!!!! Dammit.. >_> Yours truly; Belle♥ Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes Making every kind of silence, takes a lot to realize It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie And as long as I can feel you holding on I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong I'm not perfect, but I keep trying 'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave Was it something I said or just my personality? Making every kind of silence, it takes a lot to realize It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie And as long as I can feel you holding on I won't fall, even if you said I wrong I know that I'm not perfect, but I keep trying 'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave Was it something I said or just my personality? When you're caught in a lie and you've got nothing to hide When you've got nowhere to run and you've got nothing inside It tears right through me, you thought that you knew me You thought that you knew I'm not perfect, but I keep trying 'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave Was it something I said or just my personality? I'm not perfect, but I keep trying 'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave Was it something I said or just my, just myself Just myself, myself, just myself I'm not perfect, but I keep trying.. -Perfect by Hedley. It's like I can relate to this song so well..
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