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♥May-belle♥
aka Belle, Panda, Milkshake.♥
Officially 16. :D
17th August, leo
Catholic.
"Happy go hyper. :)"
Regent Sec
Regent sec m&d♥
~~Sec Onefive♥ 2008~~
~~Sec Twofive♥ 2009~~
~~Sec ThreeSix 2010~~
~~Sec FourSix 2011~~
GRADUATED from Regent Secondary.

psalms 27:4

"A lady that is striving to dwell in the house of the Lord
who is learning to see God's greater purpose for her
who wakes up and learns to be thankful for her blessings."

http://x-identity.blogspot.com/2010/03/new-identity.html

Candies♥
♥ Candies. Gummies, Chocolate, you name it!
♥ My sunshine & cupcakes.
♥ Rainbows. Anything colourful for the fact.
♥ PINK.
♥ Pink, brown, green, white, black.
♥ My pets.
♥ Bubblegum.
♥ Music.
♥ Candycane. (original)
♥ Onde Onde (green colour one w suagr inside)
♥ Bubbletea.
♥ Cappuccino, honey green tea, peach green tea, peppermint green tea bubbletea.
♥ Snacks. You shall.. NOT spoil me! :D
♥ Fruits.
♥ Being involved with my friends of different races.

Knives✖
✖ Mostly myself. I get easily tempted, etc.
✖ Hypocrites. Now tell me, who isn't one? I know I am.
✖ Homework. Burn 'em!
✖ Pe. Who started it, anyway?

Dear Santa..

NOT IN ORDER

~~ Him♥~~
~~ Hoodie (Comfy & fuzzy inside)~~
 Panda doll backpack.
 Wooden Musical box (plays when opened)
 Checkered headphones/earpiece.(cream & brown)
 waist shorts, skirt.
 New lappy.
 Sims3.
~~ off-white brown/black polka dotted frill umbrella.~~
 Lava Lamp.
 Beanie hat.
 Heart locket necklace.(Those that can open up to put pics)
~~ Watch necklace. (Opens up with a touch of a button) (Idk where I threw it to)~~
~~ Itouch.~~
 Sneakers.
 Off-shoulder tops.
~~ White sneaker-like schoolshoes.~~
 Floral top w waist skirt & belt.
~~ Essential Hair mask.~~
~~ Liese cocktail hair spray.~~
 Olympus Pen EP1 DSLR camera.
 brown/white fur Boots.
 Snow globe
~~ Transparent Umbrella.~~
~~ Very 1st Plane ride~~
~~ Meet Irwin Zephyr♥~~
 Learn Piano.
~~ Meet Ariel♥~~
~~ hip-length hair. (:~~
 Go Poly.
 LIVERPOOL jersey :D
 ~~Black~~, baby pink, greyish blue shorts.
 Dresses.♥
 More clothes, dammit.
 Prom dress.
 Have a PROM.
 Cream & brown checkered hoodie.
 Baby pink & ~~black skinnies.~~
 Zy back alive.
~~ Have Ichigo.~~
~~ Pass Math.~~
 Pass Chinese.
 Be strong.
~~ Webcam~~
~~ bff with Becky, Irwin & Mic, Ariel.♥~~
 Money.
~~ My fairytale.~~
 Travel to Paris, Japan, France, Rome, London, Australia, England.
(爱)

↑ 23rd March. @Wednesday, March 23, 20113/23/2011 09:49:00 PM

I'd do whatever it takes, to turn this round.
I know what's at stake, I know I've let you down.

Hey there, I've been really busy since the starting of the year.

Like you know, it's the YEAR for me, (like O'lvls, duhhhhh)
and I guess I'm getting along fine with it? (surprising right?)
It seemed really tough in the beginning but I've somehow managed to cope.
I realised just yesterday that being in class was rather okay.
Usually I'd feel very stressed out and can't wait for school to be over or something.

But it's good.
I mean, even for math class and all, besides..
I've done all my homework(well except for english, it takes lots of time to write)..
And I don't feel a thing, no weight, no nothing.
Despite that, I doubt that I can sit alone and revise or do my work continuously for hours.
Okay, now to talk about updates and whatsoever.
I've just patched things up with Lewis;
we had another fight thanks to me and my stupid self.
I do not wish to further elaborate, but I know that everything was my fault.
I was so disappointed and frustrated with myself,
plus I was having cramps and I was really, really tired.
So tired and in such discomfort that I just went to bed once I got home.
Of course I cried and all, and fell asleep after that.
But my father was doing some renovations and all the noise..
I was barely conscious but rather awake(light sleeper),
but I didn't bother opening my eyes.
I could hear him drilling and nailing things and moving about the bed,
but I just tried to sleep.
It was rather hard as thoughts of all our past conversations appeared and all,
and I felt really really bad.
And knowing how much that I've disappointed and hurt him made me feel like I don't deserve to live anymore.
But of course, I'm not suicidal.
I managed to fall asleep afterwards,
due to my body's tiredness.
I kept awaking, due to the discomfort that I had, both mentally and physically.
I kept checking my phone, hoping that he'd sms me.
Eventually he did, at 3.32am.
I felt kind of relieved but I knew that I had yet to apologise to him face to face.
After he reminded me of the things he'd said and all,
he asked me to keep my jacket.
I did so, while he stood up.
I looked up at him with surprise in my eyes,
and he said, "Don't you want it?"
I stood up slowly, eyes brimming with tears as I looked at him.
I hugged him, and he hugged back.
The tears started streaming down one after another.
At that point of time, I felt a mixture of feelings;
I was really touched that he was willing to forgive me and accept me again,
and I felt really bad for all the pain I've put him through,
and that I kept making mistake after mistake.
He noticed my silent crying after awhile,
cause my nose was all runny and I was sniffing.
He asked, "Why're you crying?"
and I told him, and started to cry even harder.
He comforted me by rubbing my back as he hugged me, and wiped away my tears.
Never, ever would I make my loved one hurt again, I thought.
I just couldn't stand hurting the one I loved the most anymore.
Anyway..
Syf's next monday and I'm still unsure who would be pushing the props.
Michelle, or me?
The teacher-in-charge told me that either one of us would perform for syf,
but she would still key in the cca points for my participation of practice and all.
I felt rather offended because I've been working so hard and I've turned up for almost all the practices ever since last year, and if I'm not the one performing it would be a waste.
But of course I kept it to myself.
Though it's unfair, I know that it's a part of life.
I knew that Lewis was going to watch the performance too,
and I really wanted to try my best to perform properly.
But right now I just don't know anything..
And I've just found out today that my F&N O'lvl cooking exam is in 2 weeks time.
Hell, I've not even completed my Decision Making, Decision Making Matrix, Time plan or even the Ingredient & Equipment list!
So I ended up confirming all 4 recipes today.
All that's left to do now is to convert the cooking kitchen units and to plan everything out.
The rest would be easy-peasy, except for the exam itself.
I'm nervous, because for the practice during the March hols,
I've only done my pasta and soup and it took like the whole duration to finish it.
And there's 4 dishes to do, I'm afraid there wouldn't be enough time left.

How? ):
Yours truly,

Belle♥


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Identity♥ Clickie. :D ♠ ♣ ♥ ♦ ♥May-belle♥ aka Belle, Panda, Milkshake.♥ Officially 16. :D 17th August, leo Catholic. "Happy go hyper. :)" Regent Sec Regent sec m&d♥ ~~Sec Onefive♥ 2008~~ ~~Sec Twofive♥ 2009~~ ~~Sec ThreeSix 2010~~ ~~Sec FourSix 2011~~ GRADUATED from Regent Secondary. psalms 27:4 "A lady that is striving to dwell in the house of the Lord who is learning to see God's greater purpose for her who wakes up and learns to be thankful for her blessings." http://x-identity.blogspot.com/2010/03/new-identity.html Candies♥ ♥ Candies. Gummies, Chocolate, you name it! ♥ My sunshine & cupcakes. ♥ Rainbows. Anything colourful for the fact. ♥ PINK. ♥ Pink, brown, green, white, black. ♥ My pets. ♥ Bubblegum. ♥ Music. ♥ Candycane. (original) ♥ Onde Onde (green colour one w suagr inside) ♥ Bubbletea. ♥ Cappuccino, honey green tea, peach green tea, peppermint green tea bubbletea. ♥ Snacks. You shall.. NOT spoil me! :D ♥ Fruits. ♥ Being involved with my friends of different races. Knives✖ ✖ Mostly myself. I get easily tempted, etc. ✖ Hypocrites. Now tell me, who isn't one? I know I am. ✖ Homework. Burn 'em! ✖ Pe. Who started it, anyway? Dear Santa.. NOT IN ORDER ~~ Him♥~~ ~~ Hoodie (Comfy & fuzzy inside)~~  Panda doll backpack.  Wooden Musical box (plays when opened)  Checkered headphones/earpiece.(cream & brown)  waist shorts, skirt.  New lappy.  Sims3. ~~ off-white brown/black polka dotted frill umbrella.~~  Lava Lamp.  Beanie hat.  Heart locket necklace.(Those that can open up to put pics) ~~ Watch necklace. (Opens up with a touch of a button) (Idk where I threw it to)~~ ~~ Itouch.~~  Sneakers.  Off-shoulder tops. ~~ White sneaker-like schoolshoes.~~  Floral top w waist skirt & belt. ~~ Essential Hair mask.~~ ~~ Liese cocktail hair spray.~~  Olympus Pen EP1 DSLR camera.  brown/white fur Boots.  Snow globe ~~ Transparent Umbrella.~~ ~~ Very 1st Plane ride~~ ~~ Meet Irwin Zephyr♥~~  Learn Piano. ~~ Meet Ariel♥~~ ~~ hip-length hair. (:~~  Go Poly.  LIVERPOOL jersey :D  ~~Black~~, baby pink, greyish blue shorts.  Dresses.♥  More clothes, dammit.  Prom dress.  Have a PROM.  Cream & brown checkered hoodie.  Baby pink & ~~black skinnies.~~  Zy back alive. ~~ Have Ichigo.~~ ~~ Pass Math.~~  Pass Chinese.  Be strong. ~~ Webcam~~ ~~ bff with Becky, Irwin & Mic, Ariel.♥~~  Money. ~~ My fairytale.~~  Travel to Paris, Japan, France, Rome, London, Australia, England. (爱)
↑ 23rd March. @Wednesday, March 23, 20113/23/2011 09:49:00 PM I'd do whatever it takes, to turn this round. I know what's at stake, I know I've let you down. Hey there, I've been really busy since the starting of the year. Like you know, it's the YEAR for me, (like O'lvls, duhhhhh) and I guess I'm getting along fine with it? (surprising right?) It seemed really tough in the beginning but I've somehow managed to cope. I realised just yesterday that being in class was rather okay. Usually I'd feel very stressed out and can't wait for school to be over or something. But it's good. I mean, even for math class and all, besides.. I've done all my homework(well except for english, it takes lots of time to write).. And I don't feel a thing, no weight, no nothing. Despite that, I doubt that I can sit alone and revise or do my work continuously for hours. Okay, now to talk about updates and whatsoever. I've just patched things up with Lewis; we had another fight thanks to me and my stupid self. I do not wish to further elaborate, but I know that everything was my fault. I was so disappointed and frustrated with myself, plus I was having cramps and I was really, really tired. So tired and in such discomfort that I just went to bed once I got home. Of course I cried and all, and fell asleep after that. But my father was doing some renovations and all the noise.. I was barely conscious but rather awake(light sleeper), but I didn't bother opening my eyes. I could hear him drilling and nailing things and moving about the bed, but I just tried to sleep. It was rather hard as thoughts of all our past conversations appeared and all, and I felt really really bad. And knowing how much that I've disappointed and hurt him made me feel like I don't deserve to live anymore. But of course, I'm not suicidal. I managed to fall asleep afterwards, due to my body's tiredness. I kept awaking, due to the discomfort that I had, both mentally and physically. I kept checking my phone, hoping that he'd sms me. Eventually he did, at 3.32am. I felt kind of relieved but I knew that I had yet to apologise to him face to face. After he reminded me of the things he'd said and all, he asked me to keep my jacket. I did so, while he stood up. I looked up at him with surprise in my eyes, and he said, "Don't you want it?" I stood up slowly, eyes brimming with tears as I looked at him. I hugged him, and he hugged back. The tears started streaming down one after another. At that point of time, I felt a mixture of feelings; I was really touched that he was willing to forgive me and accept me again, and I felt really bad for all the pain I've put him through, and that I kept making mistake after mistake. He noticed my silent crying after awhile, cause my nose was all runny and I was sniffing. He asked, "Why're you crying?" and I told him, and started to cry even harder. He comforted me by rubbing my back as he hugged me, and wiped away my tears. Never, *ever* would I make my loved one hurt again, I thought. I just couldn't stand hurting the one I loved the most anymore. Anyway.. Syf's next monday and I'm still unsure who would be pushing the props. Michelle, or me? The teacher-in-charge told me that either one of us would perform for syf, but she would still key in the cca points for my participation of practice and all. I felt rather offended because I've been working so hard and I've turned up for almost all the practices ever since last year, and if I'm not the one performing it would be a waste. But of course I kept it to myself. Though it's unfair, I know that it's a part of life. I knew that Lewis was going to watch the performance too, and I really wanted to try my best to perform properly. But right now I just don't know anything.. And I've just found out today that my F&N O'lvl cooking exam is in 2 weeks time. Hell, I've not even completed my Decision Making, Decision Making Matrix, Time plan or even the Ingredient & Equipment list! So I ended up confirming all 4 recipes today. All that's left to do now is to convert the cooking kitchen units and to plan everything out. The rest would be easy-peasy, except for the exam itself. I'm nervous, because for the practice during the March hols, I've only done my pasta and soup and it took like the whole duration to finish it. And there's 4 dishes to do, I'm afraid there wouldn't be enough time left. How? ): Yours truly, Belle♥
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